The Best and Worst day of my life

Yesterday i attended the LiveSmart program held at my skool. For the people who missed it: YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE JUST MISSED OUT ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes. it was great. it went overtime until 10pm but i still wouldve stayed if it went overtime till 12am. because of this program now, i am confident i will get 95 and above in my VCE. I AM SO HAPPY THAT I ATTENDED THIS SESSION!!! IT WAS SO WORTHWHILE!!!!

yesh. the program basically taught us how to use our study time to the maximum and speed revision skills really useful for revising large amounts of work in VCE. it also doesnt take much effort to pick up. anyway. its a great program and i would recommend everyone to go if they get a chance. this is one of those things that might change your whole life!

however yesterday was also a really bad day for me. this is because almost everyone i cared and thought about did something tat was really downputting for me. now let me just state one thing: THEY DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG. IT WAS JUST ME WHO HOPED FOR SOMETHING BETTER BUT GOT DIPPED IN ICE BY ALL OF THEM.

firstly lauren called me at a time when i was talking to optus customer service. i told her i would call her back. when i did she wanted me to bring drinks and there was 8 different kinds of drinks i had to bring. she also preferred them in cans. so i got them all for her.

then dad attended the session with me and didnt pay enough attention as i wouldve liked and complained to me all the way home about being too tired and the program goin overtime and making me feel guilty when nothing was my fault.

then i got home and mum said something that really peed me off and sis complained about us getting home late. i was the one tat had to make her calm down. because mum was making dinner *coughsolatecough* since we hadnt eaten yet =.=

then i expected an sms from alan but it didnt come.

okay all this is normal IF IT WASNT ON TAT SPECIFIC DAY. because on tat day:

• i thought about my friends and got them the things they needed
• i wanted dad to also learn some skills since the program was really gd and applied to all age groups.
• i gave mum a massage even though i was dead because i knew she was really tired.
• i felt guilty about not playing with my sister and was thinking about how to make up for it.
• i wanted to find a way to give all the information i got on the night to alan because he's doin VCE and this might help him really well.

also:

• i know my dad has been tired from work
• i know mum and sis have been waitin for me all tat time
• i know alan is doing VCE and may not haf the time and leisure to send me an sms

I KNOW ALL OF IT! ITS JUST THE ATTITUDE I DONT LIKE!

all this just gave me an impression that i thought about everybody but none of them thought about me which was really sad. my day was FANTASTIC because i learnt SO much useful stuff, but i ended up crying myself to sleep. i really didnt expect this.

for everyone out there: please dont hurt ppl casually. because even though u dont mean it, you might be doing it at the worst time possible.